What You’ve Done

You taught me what I shouldn't be at all.
You taught me how to stand up again after I fall.
You taught me how to erase my tears by my own.
You taught me how to heal alone.
I learned kindness from your cruel heart.
I learned how to end whenever you start.
I learned that I'm a hero inside.
I learned how to appear when you hide.
So don't you underestimate my courage to destroy.
I have a monster in me that has not been employed.
Behind my innocent face and my shiny eyes.
Is an a vengeful victim in disguise.
There will come a time when I'll teach you instead.
How wasteful it was the life you led.
I will get the chance to strike you at last.
So lo and behold, the die is cast.
*If it will feed nothing else, it will feed my revenge.

Eternal Love

One Day, A bird fall in Love with a White Flower,

& Decided To Tell Her about His Feelings,

But She Refused & Said To Him, I Don't Love You,

He Keeps Telling Her, till She Finally Told Him "When I Become Red, I Will Love You",

One Day the Bird Cut His Wings & Spread the Blood on the Flower & She Became Red,

& She Finally Realized How Much He Loved Her but It Was Too Late Because the Bird Died,

You Must Love & Respect the Feeling of the One, Who Loves You,

Before IT Become Too Late,

& Regret about Love Who's Born, & You Meet It Once In the Lifetime

When the Love Become a Dream

You Must Accept the Reality.

I’ll Be There

When no one is there for you,and you think no one cares,                                                           when the whole world walks out on you,and you think you’re alone,                                       I’ll Be There.

When the one you care about the most,could care less about you,                                         when the one you gave your heart to,throw it in your face,                                                           I’ll Be There.

When the person you trusted,Betrays you, when the person you share all your memories with,hurts you,                                                  I’ll Be There.

When all you need is a friend,To listen to you, when all you need is someone to catch your tears,                                                                       I’ll Be There.

When your Heart Beats so bad,you can’t even breathe,                                                                 when you just want to curl up and die,            I’ll Be There.

When you start to cry,after hearing that sad song,                                                                when the tears just won’t stop falling down, I’ll Be There.

So you see,I’ll Be There until the end,          This is a promise I Can make,                             If you ever need me,Just give me a call and, I’ll Be There.

I’ll Be Always There

I'll be there,
When you need someone to laugh with.
I'll be there,
When you need someone to cry with.
I'll be there,
When all the world seems to collapse upon you.
I'll be there,
When you push me away.
I'll be there,
When the mountains come crashing down.
I'll be there,
When the oceans heave themselves onto the rocks for the last time.
I'll be there,
When he doesn't love you anymore.
I'll be there,
To pick up the pieces and put you back together.
I'll be there,
To bombard you with clichés.
I'll be there,
When you don't know who could possibly care for you.
I'll be there,
When you're sad and alone.
I'll be there,
And I'll share every single moment with you,
Until you realize,
It was me who loved you all along.
I'll be there...
Always.

I Love You

 

All i want is to see you all the time
is that such a crime?
I'm sorry about how i feel
but this love is so real

This is how i feel about you
i love everything you do
your beautiful eyes
i Just wish you felt this way too

I know i should tell you how i feel
But I'm scared from the rejection i could never heal
This is the truth I've had to conceal
But My love for you is surreal

People say we would be perfect Together
That we would last forever
You are so very clever
There is no one i love what-so-ever

But all i do is keep my love hidden
just for you
because i know you don't feel the same
and if i told you our friendship is something we could never reclaim

I Can Be Only A Friend

You're the light that shines on me
you're the eye that makes me see
that life can really be a fantasy
cause dreams do come true in reality

you're the one that makes me smile
you make my living worthwhile
cause with you I don't feel blue
even if there's a chance of me losing you

in times when things seem to be so wrong
in moments when i feel i don't belong
for me, you have always been there
it's like God have answered my prayer

day and night I want to tell you i love you
but i just don't know how, not even a clue
when I'm with you, you I already miss
I just don't know how long i could handle this

life as what we all know is really unfair
you can never ask for something that's never there
I love you but i don't know if you feel the same
these feelings is slowly burning up like a flame

I don't know what the future awaits for me
I don't know if you and me are meant to be
If to be a friend for you is all I can be
then at least you know how much you mean to me

my feelings for you I know they are true
from simple admiration to love it grew
i really don't want these feelings to end
even if all I can be to you is a friend

The Recall

 

While i recalled all the words you spoke to me
cant help but wish i was there where i love to be
i need that one person who can be true to me
but you left me when i found you
now i only wish you stayed
I'm missing you again
there nothing here for me without you
nobody else for me but you and only you
cant help but think of the memories i had with you
but pictures and memories are all i have...
that will have to help me get through this for now
how i miss someone to hold
how i miss everything about you
" I miss you "

The Meaning of Girls talk:

1- Yes = No.

2- No = Yes.

3- Possible = Impossible.

4- Sorry = Forgive Me for What's Going to Happen.

5- It's Ur Decision Baby = Show Me What You Can Do.

6- Do Whatever You Want Baby = You'll Pay.

7- We Must Discuss Something = I Want To tell What I'm Going to Do.

8- It's Ok, I'm Not angry = I Swear You'll Pay.

9- You are So Handsome Today = Disgusting, Go Shave Ur Chin.

10- I Want To Buy Some Furniture = She Will Change All the Furniture.

11- I'll Be Ready in a Minute Baby = I'll Be There in an Hour, I'm Watching a Movie.

12-We Must Learn Something in Our Lives = You Must Learn To Approve Every Thing I Say.

Today & Yesterday

 

Today, I know what were my mistakes

Too bad I didn't know them yesterday.

Today, I know that I love you again
Too bad I was denying it yesterday.

Today everything is clear, I need you

Too bad everything was blurred yesterday

Tomorrow, I will know what's the right thing
Will I be able to do it?

Tomorrow, I shall pray for your forgiveness
Will you be able to forgive me?

Tomorrow, I'm supposed to get out of this darkness
Will the darkness get out of me too?

Longing for yesterday

Yearning for tomorrow,
When everything might be okay
If only I could live through today

without you...

Good Enough

 

You say you don't want to lose me
and how you love me still.
It's funny you should say that,
because that is what I feel too.
I loved you from the moment we met.
For some reason I trusted you so,
dared to show myself without holding back.
Now, those things come to haunt me,
for I feel you judge me for all that I lack.
Seeing you withdraw from our friendship
more and more with every day that passes.
I am sorry for not being able to live up to
ideals and fantasies .
It's a package deal.
I have bad qualities..but I hoped somehow
the good ones would outweigh them.
In your eyes at least.
So now I stand here,
with my heart in my hands.
Almost ashamed for who I am,
because you made me feel
not good enough.
So be it.
I can only be me.

Left Alone

 

In my mortal world
I feel nothing more
Cant bare my own thoughts
It burns my heart inside out

I want to close my eyes
Will i die now
My soul has stopped for you
There is no doubt

I don't want to be alone
So why keep breathing
you have left my life like a stone
Do you see what you've done to me

You Have Left Me alone

I don't want to be alone
Want to feel alive but i feel no more
You are dead now to me

My blood still runs in me
But My Spirit SIeeping Somewhere Cold

So Wake me up please
I don't want to sleep and live like this

All magic is gone
All laughs are too

Rest to decide the moment to go
How to go i still don't know

The bound between is broken
You killed me with Untold

I'm not alive
I'm not dead
I'm not loving you anymore
I'm Hating you in stead

I don't want to be alone
I Think I Will Be Alone

Till The End

I Will Be Forever Love You

Why ?

 

Why do these tear's fall from my eye's ?

why that every time i see you i want to hide?

why do i feel like i am dying inside?

why do i still love you so much?

why do i still have all the pain you put me though?

why do i carry the hurt ?

why why did you do this to me you were me life?

but now all you are a past of hurt, tear's,lies

i am trying to move on with me life but i still ask why.

The Cry

 

Fear and darkness inside collide like a wave
For the first time in my life I feel I am in a cave

Lost in my own thoughts hurt by my own
It was a mistake to let my feeling be shown

I lost it, I am officially numb, no more breath
Like a zombie living and not, just waiting for death

Eyes of fear, with an empty heart and a tear
I shut my ears; the silent is too loud to hear

No one care about I live or die anymore
So why I am still here and I am living for?

I am going to stop fighting, I fought a lot today
I just want to flow so far, and just runaway

Star in the sky , take me away to your arms
You took me down by your light and your charms

Waiting the endless nights crying alone there
But I should know better, life is never fair

Not Yet

 

Why is it always so easy to remember what one's trying to forget?

What are usually the things we want, those we can never get?

Why do we sometimes hope to see the people, we've never met?

Why the things we want to be express, those we've never said?

Why are the things we do, the things we afterwards regret?

Why is life for all of us this forever lost bet?

I think you're waiting for an answer, But unfortunately I don't have one yet.

Love

 

"There's no love, everybody's crying, there's no truth, everyone's misguided"

What is love!

Is it a feeling?

Is it lying?

Is it hurt?

Is it misunderstanding?

Is it fake'?

Is it pretending?

If u loves somebody, do not wait for anything in return. Except appreciating it. But u got hurt, lies,& fake feelings indeed, hate urself,almost die, no one to say goodbye,& the one u loved more than ur life, don't care, care to hurt u,think to lie to u,don't u know that u got no place in mind to rest, she's never thought about u,except to hurt u,got her pleasure & satisfaction are confused what to do, while preparing to hurt u,stoned,cold hearts, doesn't care about love at the end ,u die lie & still no love.

Lost yourself

 

What happens when u just lost yourself?

What happens when u just lost all your friends?

What happens when u just lost your love?

What happens when u just lost your touch?

What happens when u just lost your helping hand?

What happens when just lost your feelings of love?

What happens when your feelings of love just fade away?

What happens when u just lost your hug?

Everything now is fading away, & left u hiding in shadows, running from the light, there is no feelings left, there is only emptiness & dark.

Should I just fight or give up?

Should I just die?

Who am I now?

There's no one to help me , There's no one here to hold my hand , The dreaming of love & the hug just vanished into dust , The dreaming of seeing the sunrise with a friend is now gone in the dark .

What happens when u become the biggest loser?

What happens when all u can do is live in fear & hate?

There's no answers , The pain is left inside forever , I got no one to help , Nothing' to lose , every meaning of live are vanished & your cries are all in vain & no one can take anything of this go away , You are alone now , The dark around U , you will just have a choke upon & die alone .

That is what happens when u lose your life.

That is what happens when u lose yourself.

Leaves of the fall

 

I search in all faces, I see for the feeling of pride & dignity. I try to find the wonder lost , I only find feelings left to rust , Hollow hearts with no springs , But care , from where to bring , I feel the chill in a body so cold , I find no breathe in me to hold , but the hearts are like desert land , refuse to walk hand in hand ,my tears now run , searching for someone , I'm easily crushed like leaves of the fall , no one to hear , for no one to call , no more sunshine's or light beams , only the one I see in my dreams.

FIFTY FUN THINGS TO DO IN AN ELEVATOR

 

1. Make race car noises when anyone gets on or off.

2. Blow your nose and offer to show the contents of your kleenex
to other passengers.

3. Grimace painfully while smacking your forehead and muttering:
"Shut up all of you just shut UP!"

4. Whistle the first seven notes of "It's a Small World" incessantly.

5. Sell Girl Scout cookies.

6. On a long ride, sway side to side at the natural frequency of the elevator.

7. Shave.

8. Crack open your briefcase or purse, and while peering inside
ask: "Got enough air in there?"

9. Offer name tags to everyone getting on the elevator. Wear
yours upside-down.

10. Stand silent and motionless in the corner, facing the wall,
without getting off.

11. When arriving at your floor, grunt and strain to yank the
doors open, then act embarrassed when they open by themselves.

12. Lean over to another passenger and whisper: "Noogie patrol coming!"

13. Greet everyone getting on the elevator with a warm handshake
and ask them to call you Admiral.

14. One word: Flatulence!

15. On the highest floor, hold the door open and demand that
it stay open until you hear the penny you dropped down the
shaft go "plink" at the bottom.
16. Do Tai Chi exercises.

17. Stare, grinning, at another passenger for a while, and then
announce: "I've got new socks on!"

18. When at least 8 people have boarded, moan from the back:
"Oh, not now stupid motion sickness!"

19. Meow occassionally.

20. Bet the other passengers you can fit a quarter in your nose.

21. Frown and mutter "gotta go, gotta go" then sigh and say "oops!"

22. Show other passengers a wound and ask if it looks infected.

23. Sing "Mary had a little lamb" while continually pushing buttons.

24. Holler "Chutes away!" whenever the elevator descends.

25. Walk on with a cooler that says "human head" on the side.

26. Stare at another passenger for a while, then announce "You're one
of THEM!" and move to the far corner of the elevator.

27. Burp, and then say "mmmm...tasty!"

28. Leave a box between the doors.

29. Ask each passenger getting on if you can push the button for them.

30. Wear a puppet on your hand and talk to other passengers "through" it.

31. Start a sing-along.

32. When the elevator is silent, look around and ask "is that your beeper?"

33. Play the harmonica.

34. Shadow box.
35. Say "Ding!" at each floor.

36. Lean against the button panel.

37. Say "I wonder what all these do" and push the red buttons.

38. Listen to the elevator walls with a stethoscope.

39. Draw a little square on the floor with chalk and announce to the
other passengers that this is your "personal space."

40. Bring a chair along.

41. Take a bite of a sandwich and ask another passenger: "Wanna see
wha in muh mouf?"

42. Blow spit bubbles.

43. Pull your gum out of your mouth in long strings.

44. Announce in a demonic voice: "I must find a more suitable host body."

45. Carry a blanket and clutch it protectively.

46. Make explosion noises when anyone presses a button.

47. Wear "X-Ray Specs" and leer suggestively at other passengers.

48. Stare at your thumb and say "I think it's getting larger."

49. Jump up whenever the elevator stops and yell 'YIPEEEEE!'

50. As you are walking out, push as many buttons as you can.

Quoted From : Neutroid

Feelings

 

So hurt, so Sad, So Lonely, I'm feeling feelings I never had, where can I go? What can I say? Shall I start by saying come back, I need U to guard my way? I need friend , A true friend , someone I could talk to, someone who can truly share ,care,& dare to feel the truth, everyone I know is so vain , so plain , no feelings , no respect , no understanding for themselves , they should only care , so selfish , how can I bear ? oh , I need someone to feel the music , I need someone to watch the sunrise & sunset inside of me , someone who would mend the musical strings that sometimes get burned by me , I bleed , oh , yes . I do , right now , I'm seeing it by inner eye , that is the one who performs my cry , let me know ,why is it me ? Where is me? Which one? Please point it out, let me know, who am I? Who should I be? A caring, understanding person with so much to feel, & so much to be, let me know, when can I stop the bleed? When can I find the friend indeed? When will this end? When will my inner self be free? Please let me know & help me to stop the bleed.

Forever

Forever will I cry
Forever will I die
Forever will I shed my tears
Forever will last years and years
Forever will I wish to take it back
fill a hole that wont turn black
Forever will I grit my teeth
Forever will I her heart bequeath
Forever will I bite my tongue
Forever will my heart be stung
Forever will last years and years
Forever will I shed my tears

My Pain

Blood expresses how i feel
Broken is my heart of steel
Hate leaks out of my mouth
My ice heart is beating south
The hatred stares i receive
I care for not I'll make you bleed
All new life can go die
All they'll do in life is cry

Pain is all you'll be
Hate is all you'll see
Fakers will soon die
No draining seconds will pass by

So I'll push help away
I wasn't gonna listen anyway
I won't be pushed around
I won't collapse to the ground
I'm sick of always playing pretend
I'm looking forward to the end
Opening up these veins
Is what keep me sane .

The Emptiness

One day you'll wake up and wonder--isn't someone missing? 

Then you'll shed a tear because you miss the emptiness.  

This sadness is my life; this overbearing theme pushing me further under, stifling each smile, burning beneath each forced note of laughed.  What is pure joy...full hearted happiness?  I no longer remember it's touch.  My only friend is loneliness...my closest companion and yet my silent killer hiding behind a mask of composure and small mindless chatter.  My heart is broken, but the pain becomes so numb.  Such irony inside my soul.

It's amazing how quickly dreams can die--this silence is my heartbreak--this dreamless state is my fall--this depression is writing the end.

Me In My Dreams

Harsh words & violent blows
Hidden secrets nobody knows
Eyes are open, hands are fisted
Deep inside I'm warped and twisted
So many tricks and so many lies
Too many whens and too many whys
Nobody's special, nobody's gifted
I'm just me, warped and twisted
Sleeping awake & choking on a dream
Listening loudly to a silent scream
Call my mind, the number's unlisted
Lost in someone so warped and twisted
On my knees, alive but dead
Look at the invisible blood I've bled
I'm almost gone, my mind has drifted
Don't expect much, I'm warped and twisted
Burnt out, wasted, sad, and hollow
Today's just yesterday's tomorrow
The sun died out, the ashes sifted
I'm still here, warped and twisted.

My Sorrow

Slowly drowning in my sorrow

Wishing things would be better tomorrow

Feeling like I am in an ocean of doubt and despair,

gradually sinking and gasping for air.

Knowing life is not a light switch you can flip on and off

Simply settling and accepting I have to carry on.

Trying to keep my sanity and composure intact

out of fear of how those close to me, might react.

Fears of inadequacy as a human, as a woman, burry themselves deep in my head

As I make a foolish attempt to have a good night's rest in my lumpy bed.

Due to the fact that there are others out there ten times better than I,

makes me afraid and let out defeated sighs.

Since it seems like things will always be this way,

its frustrating because I have to go through it day after day.

Yet, when my quandaries are more than I can bare,

I can at least take comfort in those who really care.

You know who you are, and so do I.

That knowledge keeps me from going over the edge, from giving up and giving in.